Buzzzyy Bee

hey.

sorry for d long pause. i've been busy 24/7. got no time for myself. i did my master while working. tough man! woke up at 6, straight go to work at KL. at 4pm rush keluar kije took a bus at pasar seni directly to seksyen 2 shah alam. then took another bus to go to faculty. class start at 6.30 till 9pm. eventhough its a first week, i had begin my class and got tonne of assignment to be done. 4 subject seems so heavy. waiting bus definitely wasting my time. u know, bus service is totally sucks. i reached home around 10.30. dinner, bath, iron baju. tidur pukul 12. dis life schedule rotates until 15jan. alang alang nak berhenti. 2 wiks more left. perhaps on 15jan i finished my PNB training. since my body cannot adapt dis hectic life schedule, i become so exhausted, and my eye bags getting darker and resulting with mata bengkak and sembap. lana, bertahan. lagi 1 minggu je tinggal. lepas tu, u blh relax.

master in applied statistics is quite challenging. they test u with variety of mathematic skills, especially topic which focus on probability, statistics, algebra, etc. they teach u how to forecast, evaluating, monitoring, using software, etc. haih. lotsa things i need to learn. i have to treasure it all. lecturers is OK compared to my lecturers in degree years. classmates are friendly and baik baik. ada yang kerja (buat master part time), ada yang fulltime.

tadi i gaduh dengan mr boyf. dia xbagi i pegi masquerade party which organized by my cousin. plus, he didn't allowed me to participate with my PNB colleagues to Port Dickson. haih. i don't think his reasons make sense to me. he said

"i xsuka u pergi jauh jauh sekarang ni. dulu kan mana yang kene dulu. u kene sacrifice. u kene focus ngan apa yang u buat. banyak lg benda yg u nak guna duit. so better xpayah join all those stuff. i pun ramai je kwn2 i ajak. tp i fikir u."

Ala. i study dulu pun. meronggeng je sana sini. xkan bila dah study xboleh enjoy lgsg. haih. Lana. Don't start. he didnt like this in d previous. puas i pujuk, gune macam2 alasan, putar belit fact, mr boyf xbagi jugak. mata i yang da penat gile ni asyik keluar air mata je tadi. memang horrible la muka i. gloomy. nmpk sgt muke problem.

suddenly, i fikir2 balik kan, maybe i fall into d wrong guy again. yes, AGAIN. maybe dis is what God revenge to me after all the sins i've done. stop talk about that. nah. nanti stress bila i fikir balik.

Okla. i macam nak demam. badan letih sangat kot. selsema xberhenti. esok i malas pergi kerja. i nak pergi uitm beli buku-buku. banyak yang kene beli ni. macam2 buku yang mahal2 kene beli. okla, i nak mandi, makan, amik ubat selsema then tidur. nak rehat awal.

Taa~

LaNa
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