it's officially cancelled.

hi readers.

this is not a wedding blog. more to personal diary.

it took some time for me to write this post.

i'm sad.

i cried.

heart broken.

frustrated.

regret.

my wedding cancelled. don't ask why. i pun tak sure how this things screwed like this.

now, i'm having a big crisis. not appropriate to spill it here. biarlah i saja yang tahu.

kalau ada jodoh, tak kemana. i guess in my case, tak ke mana-mana. i serik nak bercinta, honestly.

i prefer with open relationship. both parties got no commitment. so mat saleh. lols.

2 june 2012, i will miss this date, the preparation towards it, excitement, sharing ideas, etc. maybe date tu i pergi holiday/umrah.. i won't be around for sure. sorry for those yang buat wedding during that date. i don't want to be your wedding crasher :P

i know, every people ada dugaan masing-masing nak kahwin. i know.

but mine, it was horrible.

rasa nak lari jauh-jauh, jerit kuat-kuat, nangis sepuas hati, shopping, pastu dance sampai tak boleh nak berdiri. nice one.

doakan i dapat sambung belajar jauh-jauh, dapat kerja tetap, banyak duit, kurang dugaan yang besar-besar, iman sentiasa teguh, tak mudah patah semangat, sentiasa hot walaupun umur da naik banyak nombor (takde kaitan). lol.

i will close sume story pasal wedding. kalau teringat, susah. banjir lagi mukaku ini.

bye people. mat saleh cakap, turn over a new leaf.

i will never close this blog. tapi i cerita pasal selain daripada wedding stuffs.

. Hugs . Hugs . Hugs .

♥ Lana ♥

Sakit pinggang IV

hi.

not in the mood today.

my lower back pain slowly reduced, but new problem arises.

both of my feet feel numb. sometimes, i can't feel my own feet.

started with right foot, because my back pain is more on the right body. now, both of my feet start to feel numb. i cannot do anything properly.

mum doesn't care about me. she think i look fine. sebab i still boleh drive ke sana ke mari keluar sana sini.

*takkan nak tunjuk sakit kot*

*takkan nak berehat 24 jam. tak buat apa-apa*

she said, "kalau dah teruk sangat baru jumpa specialist"

poor me. up to u, mom.

you can wait until I am bedridden.

Ya Allah :'(

Sakit pinggang & Wedding Cards

hai & salam readers.

I sakit belakang gila-gila hari ni. haih. it has been 2 weeks already. i rasa pinggang dah macam ok. sakit sikit-sikit je. i pun menggatal pergi naik Pablo Picasso (nama kuda tu la). padahal mommy dah pesan "lepas ni jangan naik kuda ke apa-apa dah"

padan la muka kau lana.

kaki melecet teruk, habis sengal satu badan sebab dah lama tak naik kuda. paling best sekali, pinggang makin tambah-tambah sakit. yang sebelum ni sakit tak baik lagi . konon ingat naik kuda, boleh terapi la sangat. cara riding pun silap, memang tak jadi terapi dah la. kalau naik cara betul, memang la jadi terapi bagus.

bersin or batuk pun boleh buat pinggang sakit. naik kereta, tekan brake ada bam pun, boleh rasa nak menjerit pinggang sakit. bejalan sakit, duduk sakit, baring pun sakit. bila belakang sakit, memang semua kerja tak dapat buat dengan baik. turun/naik tangga pun slow-slow je sebab sakit. solat pun kene slow-slow. kalau tak menggigil tahan sakit.

astaghfirullahalazi'm.

klinik dah pergi. macam biasa la, dia bagi injection & painkiller. isnin ni insyaAllah try jumpa ustaz pula. kenapa I sakit-sakit je sekarang ni. dah pinggang, melarat kat bahu & tangan. lepas da baik, peha & lutut pula sakit.

banyak sangat dosa kot.

plan nak pergi spa & alternatif medication yang lain juga :(

Wedding Card

dah siap!

i like the outcome even bukan hard cover! service pun bagus! cepat!

kesian dorang, melayan kerenah I yang cerewet ni. ada la dekat 10-15 kali edit itu ini. sorry, khalid.

visit their website. nak order online pun boleh. datang showroom pun boleh.

banyak design sampai tak tahu nak pilih yang mana.

kad-kad kahwin (Click here)

u won't regret.

i punya kad RM1.20 per card x 500 cards = RM600

design + other charges = RM55

Total spent is RM655 for 500 cards

they give me extra copies kad tu. in case i tesilap tulis ke apa kan. dia sendiri tak sure berapa extra kad tu. pastu dapat free kalendar 2012 dalam 200 keping. ala kalendar panjang sekeping tu. comel je kalendar tu.

I rasa murah kad I. ala, majlis i pun biasa-biasa je. buat apa kad mahal-mahal kan?

tapi ,tiba-tiba kawan-kawan i yang pergi Bandung cakap, harga tu kat sana dah boleh dapat kad hard cover cantik. pulak dah.

then, I heard overall orang lain dengan total RM655 boleh dapat free paper bag, TQ tag, bunting, etc. hurrmm...

is that true?

i rasa tak pe lah. it depends on what we want la kan.

for me, kad-kad kahwin is highly recommended! printing dia superb! design dia tak macam kad-kad biasa. tak macam copy paste punya artwork. lebih modern, contemporary, chic, stylish. they have team yang very passion buat kerja design kad ni. kalau tak percaya tengok website dia. they also very professional!

takdelah macam sesetengah vendor tu kan, die google je gambar/amik kat devianart, ambil gambar tu letak kat kad dia. pastu cakap dia design sendiri. i jumpa ramai da kottt. pastu cas 1 kad sampai 1.50 & above. tak baik tau.

conclusion, i ♥ my card alot.

upcoming events for march:

3-4 march - mellow's big day (I'm one of the bridesmaid for both events)

10-13 march - redang island, terengganu. weeee!

25-30 march - FEI world cup showjumping challenge, bukit kiara equestrian resort ~ Mr. E participated in this competition!! :)

all pictures are courtesy from google

harap-harap pinggang dah baik time ni. Amin.

♥

Lana

Ups and Downs

hi.

three weeks ago, my boyf fell from the horse when he was training for showjumping. competition is around the corner btw. what I want to emphasize is, he is a professional rider, so he knows how to avoid those accident. So when I said he fell from the horse, it means it's worry-able situation. Alhamdulillah no serious injury involved. Just scratches, bruises & swollen shoulder.

something like this on first fall

two weeks ago, my boyf fell from the horse again. This time lagi teruk from previous. he fell, then the horse fell on his body. Luckily he fell at the pool of mud, not on the hard ground. he almost suffocate because the horse fell right on his upper body, urm, including entire face. then, his friends quickly pull the rein so that the horse will stand and my boyf can easily moved. the result of that accident... sprained ankles, more scratches, bruises and cuts :(

2nd fall. something like this.

this week, he is safe and sounded. but, I'm the one who suddenly sakit pinggang. it has been 3 days now. i ate the medication, put hot ointment, put warmer at the back of my waist and even asked for injection to relieves the pain. doctor said it because of the torn muscle/muscle strain. Urm.. I tak buat pun apa-apa exercise when thing happened. I just sit, sit, sit while sewing + DIY-ing bunga pahar.

long sigh~

Bad things happened to us lately. from every aspects.

financial, physical, emotion, environment, family, friends, career and whatnot.

Bye. I'm happy. Don't you worry.

soon-to-be. insyaAllah.

all pictures are courtesy from google.

♥ Lana ♥

What would you do if...

hi & salam readers..

I need your opinion.

what would you do if..

1. your parent hates your partner and it's getting worsen from day to day as the date of your wedding comes near?
2. your partner promise you alot (focus on financial aspect only). But due to thousands of unexpected reasons, he/she cannot fulfil it and causing bad consequences between you and parents?
3. you don't have a proper job, no fixed income & no money. But you want to tie the knot with your loved ones?
4. your parent asked several times to break up with your partner and find another man/woman to replace his place just before your big day?
5. all those above situation happens to you?

longgg sigh~

pray for me.

♥

Lana

Negativity

hi readers.

i had promised not to write a negative post, but this time i'm kinda pissed with many people. sigh. what to do. life must go on.

-- part time worker been treated like sh*t. they give low salary, very late payment, no facilities & accommodation, nak kerja apa-apa cepat je, itu nak, ini nak. tapi gaji macam f**k.

-- my wedding hall manager drives me nuts. cancel, cancel and cancel appointment. postpone to sunday. sigh~

-- money & financial problem.

-- students yang banyak demand. nak dapat degree/diploma/cert, tp tak nak usaha apa-apa. itu tak boleh, ini tak boleh. dah tak fikir quality. janji dapat grad. tu je dalam kepala otak. benda lain malas & tak commited. mentang-mentang i part time & very young & sangat kecil kan.

at the end of the day, i feel like want to cry as much as i can. i'm crying now while typing this entry :'(

Dear God, eventhough i've committed so many sins, please pity my parents. i just want a job that can ligthten my parent's burden. tambah-tambah lagi untuk wedding nanti.

Amin.

♥ Lana ♥