my previous blog was expired, so i create a new one.

today i just recovered. haih. maybe problem byk sgt kot. kepale ni kalo blh ckp, die da sound da. "eyh lana. stop la pikir2 prob tu. avoid them. so it wont create a new prob".

office ari ni cm biasa la. kosong je. since staf sume p kedah buat sales n taklimat pe tah. kerani je tggal. dorang blk ni, siap la.. msti btimbun la kije dorg bg. sabar je la. kije melipat-lipat brochure ke apa tah. sibbaik trainee. kalo staf, da lama i sound dorg.

money prob had mountained (dunno this word exist or not) up in my head. yeah, i know, money cant buy happiness. but, u need money to achieve yr happiness. its true. sometimes, i think ive been blinded by love. yes, i know he showered me with love & care, i realllyy appreciate it. i love u more than evryting in dis world. but xkan la everytime jumpa i kene belanja dia. teruk la. gaji i as a trainee pun 700 je. (yes, 700 ok).. its not called a salary. its elaun sara diri. u da kije. gaji pun 1k above la kan. xkan la i yang mude dr u, nk kene sapot sume bende. climax die bile die da pandai2 nk decide wat i hv to spend with my salary. come on la. i hv pride & dignity ok. im not stupid. im silent not becoz i xkesah. i juz wait for u to change. i nk u rasa sniri. u da bsr u blh pk la. u tlg org lain sng2 je bile dorg xde duit. i ni apa? apa? bile u xde duit, u cr i jugak. bile u nk topup, i yg blikan. yg u xsdr diri ke? duit u blh je u bg kt org lain instead of u menyusahkan i kene blanje u mcm2. da la birthday n konvo pun, xbg i apa2 pun. i xmintak adiah. tp u pk la sniri kan. xkan i nk ckp?

ni br skrg. da kawin t, xtaw la cmne kan. i hate u but i lv u more. my femly like u. they do love u. they always try to help u. but on the behind, i suffered. u know, i changed alot bcoz of u. i dun go to club anymore, i dont shopping (bt i loveee shopping), i dun hang out unless u ada, u xrasa ke i sacrifice alot towards u?? u xrasa ke apa i rasa? yg u taw, bile i buat hal, u nk mara. bile i xtlg u, u psycho2 i smpi dpt pe yg u nk. sum ppl said i baik sgt dgn laki. jd BODOH. betul kot. im not sure if i can get married or not. serik la becinte2 ni. hey, help me get out of this prob!!!

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